chasing shadows

I am forever chasing shadows
Unable to touch
I am forever amused by fire
burning, burning
Never satisfied
Ever seeking
Always needing
Searching
Poet
And Priest
Of nothing
Endless fascination
Unending yearning
Aching for more
Unfulfilled
Needing
Wanting
Desperate for more

ache

The thing I remember best was the waiting
endless waiting
the payoff was so brief
so fleeting
and I was addicted; consumed
charmed
and you--YOU 
were a dream come true
my flawed prince charming
my knight in tarnished armor
and the ache
that perfect, sweet ache
my addiction
my obsession
how you calmed my soul
when every nerve in my body 
was burning
and for a fleeting moment
I was vividly alive
then I woke up 
the nightmare began
and I crashed back to earth
your knife buried so deep
I woke up
and I was not enough
never enough
still I am bound
by a fine silver chain
and still I ache
long to be more than I am
to you
for you
and just once more
I wish
for that longing
that need
and I know
it will never come
the spell is broken
I am desperate
to dream again
and I can't sleep